Stressing out

Ones health is deteriorating her seizures are increasing by the minute, over 70 seizures in an fortnight, its madness, it's uncommon for me you see. Her work is stressing her out to the point that she dreads waking up each morning for work. This is my life at the moment. This chaos is out of hand nobody understands, but only it's her family and friends and her partner too. He's worried about his girlfriend's health and hates to see her sick, He has stuck by her side through thick and thin. I told my manager the other day about my learning difficulty, she told me that I should of told her sooner because it would've made an difference, let me tell you it would've made things worse if I told her sooner as it would give them ammunition to fire me. Know this is why in I don't disclose these things because I instantly get judged. I felt like it was my fault for keeping it hidden from plain sight. But it was obvious and you could see I was struggling in the beginning for the job but never asked me why. I disclosed my epilepsy after an couple of weeks working there and my manager thought as I've said before that I was and I quote "using it as an excuse to get out of work" and also been called an liability twice, are really people that stupid. They want evidence a letter from my doctor when in all honesty its actually none of their business to know my whole medical history it's confidential information for an reason. But on the other hand it works in my favor as once they get that information from my doctors, its harder for them to fire me as that would be unfair dismissal . Another part of me wants to prove an point, to stop taking my medication for three days straight and risk my health. For them to watch and see when an grand-mal hits me, the seizures that they can only see.Tell me why would I use it for the wrong reasons? I work hard, I try my best. But it's not good enough for them. Yes it takes me longer to get things and to get them right. Patience is the virtue right? All this stress and anxiety is not only increasing my seizures but my mental health is decreasing it's depressing. My probationary period got extended which is an good and bad thing, all because I wasn't learning fast enough. I'm getting sick all the time these days, sometimes having 12 or more seizures a day. Feeling spacey like I can't even think straight. My brain is hurting I'm exhausted. All I can do is to do my best and try to forget about the rest. But it bothers me and I'm trying not to take it personally, but this is my health I'm talking about. Its more important than anything else.