I was born with epilepsy, the first seizure I had was at age four. Fast forward to 1985, I was eleven years old and having my first craniotomy. Not knowing that I was going to have two more craniotomies. Then having a vagus nerve stimulator a VNS put in me in 2016.
It's now 2018, and still get a lot of depression, anger which makes me feel like I am not mentally all there at times. Hormones make it worse!
I am a sister, daughter, Aunt, niece, but not a mother. I have always been afraid to be a mother, in case the child is disabled in some way. There are so many medications out there that can prevent us from having children.
The only thing I can say that is good about this, is that I wouldn't be who I am today, if I hadn't gone through all my struggles back then. I still have struggles that I go through presently, but that makes us who we are. It makes us stronger. We have faced so many fears. "We" meaning everyone who goes through this.
I do my best, I wake up every morning, and I make myself get out of bed, so I can start another day. Either the day will be terrific or it might be a bad day. However, I will make it through another day!
We are born to be human, not to be perfect.
Life is full of challenges, being happy shouldn't be one of them.
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